I’m just to scared what you’ll think of me. I love you all, but I’m not perfect and I’m nowhere near close to being the girl you guys think I am. I want for you guys to accept me, but I know you guys wont. I can tell by the way you all look at me.
Tonight music will be my medicine. As well as the next day and the day after, my lullaby. Take me into sweet dreams, into a sweet life that I will one day have.
This dream of mine will never come true , especially acting the way I do. I need some help, some inspiration. I need someone to show me that it’ll be okay, to guide me threw step into becoming that better person I want to be, sadly i’m still in the same page I was last year, and I really want to move on, but I can’t. I’m broken.
It scares me, I hate to see you guys argue for no reason. I want to love you guys, but is hard. I don’t want to pick sides. I don’t get this, you guys always talk about how I should be, but you guys never think about how you guys act and the influence you give me. It makes me feel helpless , and it makes me get sad.
Don’t create lies about the first time you were with your boyfriend, you know how it went. It wasn’t like that , nope it wasn’t.
Please don’t leave me alone, please don’t. That’s when I start to think the most. That’s when I start to get emotionally and depressed. I don’t want to think .
My heart just breaks every time. I don’t think I’ll ever be okay.
You just don’t understand me, you don’t. You don’t take your time to do so.
